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I CAN'T EVEN.
May. 25th, 2016 07:00 pmdear gljlkjgfd it's glorious.
i got me for life
May. 21st, 2016 05:12 pmThis is just going to be a plethora of words that I'm spewing out - feelings all over the place yay.
1. I've been doing a thing for the teacher and fandom aspect of my life and thanking one person each day for the month of May. It's a way to kind of send a crap ton of good karma out into the universe [and hopefully it comes back to me]
2. Teaching is seriously one of the most difficult jobs ever. Parents are on my case right now and I've read some terrible e-mails and I just don't want to deal with them.
3. My classroom and house continue to be a mess. I need to just sit and organize but I'm a serial hoarder and I'm so damn lazy - a terrible combo tbh
4. Weight is still a problem - a daily issue I struggle with. Clothes don't fit, tears have fallen, and I'll still reach for the calorie laden foods
5. I think I'm going to die alone, which would be fine on a normal day, but I've felt so cripplingly alone these past few weeks, it's terrifying right now
6. I don't even know how many people read this anymore - 1, 2? And even less comment. Not helping my feelings any. This goes for all aspects of social media. It's a dangerous world out there - always comparing my numbers to others, my comments to others, my feelings to others, my friends to others. It's playing with my mind and comparison/jealousy is the root of all evil, I swear it.
7. My birthday is Wednesday and while I usually make a big deal of it, I'm really just wanting to close the door on the world.
8. I have passport shit to deal with because I somehow lost mine. I am such an idiot, seriously. They want you to prove citizenship but I became a citizen under my dad because I was less than 18, and I don't have an old passport to prove it hence the reason I'm getting a new one! Plus it's costing so much money. And the reason I need a passport is I'm going to Kenya this summer and I'm not looking forward to it too much for a few reasons
9. I feel like all I do is give, and don't receive anything in turn. And I KNOW that I don't give all of myself to get stuff, but a little recognition or appreciation would be amazing.
10. I needed a nice even number for this haha. I am so behind on EVERYTHING. I need to prioritize again, it's getting to be a problem. I ask my students all the time 'what are you choosing to do instead?' for late assignments and such, and for me? I couldn't tell you.
Okay that was my word vomit of the day. I hope you're keeping well. And if you read all that? You're a rockstar.
1. I've been doing a thing for the teacher and fandom aspect of my life and thanking one person each day for the month of May. It's a way to kind of send a crap ton of good karma out into the universe [and hopefully it comes back to me]
2. Teaching is seriously one of the most difficult jobs ever. Parents are on my case right now and I've read some terrible e-mails and I just don't want to deal with them.
3. My classroom and house continue to be a mess. I need to just sit and organize but I'm a serial hoarder and I'm so damn lazy - a terrible combo tbh
4. Weight is still a problem - a daily issue I struggle with. Clothes don't fit, tears have fallen, and I'll still reach for the calorie laden foods
5. I think I'm going to die alone, which would be fine on a normal day, but I've felt so cripplingly alone these past few weeks, it's terrifying right now
6. I don't even know how many people read this anymore - 1, 2? And even less comment. Not helping my feelings any. This goes for all aspects of social media. It's a dangerous world out there - always comparing my numbers to others, my comments to others, my feelings to others, my friends to others. It's playing with my mind and comparison/jealousy is the root of all evil, I swear it.
7. My birthday is Wednesday and while I usually make a big deal of it, I'm really just wanting to close the door on the world.
8. I have passport shit to deal with because I somehow lost mine. I am such an idiot, seriously. They want you to prove citizenship but I became a citizen under my dad because I was less than 18, and I don't have an old passport to prove it hence the reason I'm getting a new one! Plus it's costing so much money. And the reason I need a passport is I'm going to Kenya this summer and I'm not looking forward to it too much for a few reasons
9. I feel like all I do is give, and don't receive anything in turn. And I KNOW that I don't give all of myself to get stuff, but a little recognition or appreciation would be amazing.
10. I needed a nice even number for this haha. I am so behind on EVERYTHING. I need to prioritize again, it's getting to be a problem. I ask my students all the time 'what are you choosing to do instead?' for late assignments and such, and for me? I couldn't tell you.
Okay that was my word vomit of the day. I hope you're keeping well. And if you read all that? You're a rockstar.
Why don't you be you, and I'll be me?
May. 9th, 2016 08:34 pm- Art: Trust
NSFW; BDSM
+ Fresh Ink and Blueberry Muffins by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
riyku
Five years should have been enough time to get over Jared. Jensen finds out that it doesn't even come close. (Alternatively, the one where Jensen is a tattoo artist and Jared has one hell of a sweet tooth.)
Sexy and intimate and hella perfect
+ There Is No Sweeter Innocence Than Our Gentle Sin byjojothecr
During the Nerd HQ Panel at Comic-Con, Jared talked about his feelings of 'letting people down, not being good enough...' You think Jensen can let that just go?
Tender and achy and amazing
+ A Year in Life byakintay
After his break-up with Sandy, Jared is doing fine. He doesn't need to rebound (like Chad thinks he does) and he isn't falling apart (like everyone on set thinks he is). He has his dogs, his job, and Jensen.
This was such a SOLID fic - had everything you could want in your traditional non-au <3
NSFW; BDSM
+ Fresh Ink and Blueberry Muffins by
riyku Five years should have been enough time to get over Jared. Jensen finds out that it doesn't even come close. (Alternatively, the one where Jensen is a tattoo artist and Jared has one hell of a sweet tooth.)
Sexy and intimate and hella perfect
+ There Is No Sweeter Innocence Than Our Gentle Sin by
jojothecrDuring the Nerd HQ Panel at Comic-Con, Jared talked about his feelings of 'letting people down, not being good enough...' You think Jensen can let that just go?
Tender and achy and amazing
+ A Year in Life by
akintayAfter his break-up with Sandy, Jared is doing fine. He doesn't need to rebound (like Chad thinks he does) and he isn't falling apart (like everyone on set thinks he is). He has his dogs, his job, and Jensen.
This was such a SOLID fic - had everything you could want in your traditional non-au <3
monday recs
Apr. 18th, 2016 01:11 pmNo school today because it's POURING, so some recs!
- J2 in 2015 byfiercelynormal
I like to relive these moments over and over! Hopefully it gets done for 2016 ;)
- Any of the vids bytextandtea at ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
lightningmix
- Harry/Draco Art: I want to be the first thing you touch in the morning byprimea
The New And Improved Morning Routine ™, Harry calls it, ever since that one time Draco agreed to stay the night.
JFC This is gorgeous.
♥ the Gentle Descent Into Ruination byhybridshade
Cleaning up the streets is a tough gig, but Detective Jared Padalecki has always had a strict moral code to fall back on, to help him make the tough decisions. Jensen is his criminal informant, and has proven time and again to be Jared's one exception to the rule.
This was such a delectable fic. Sexy and intense!
♥ ove or death, grab an end, pull hard, and make a wish byriyku
Rookie mistake number one: the sheriff should have put the handcuffs on a notch tighter. (Or, how I spent my summer vacation, by Jensen Ackles, serial killer.)
Gritty and feral and miles away from my usual fic I love, but DAMN R has a way of drawing you in no matter what.
♥ Sing the Praises byviviansface
Long story short, being in a long distance relationship sucks (not that that’s surprising, Jensen realized it really, really would approximately ten hours after Jared left for college hundreds of miles away).
Fantastic - so much conveyed without losing any of the sexiness.
- J2 in 2015 by
fiercelynormalI like to relive these moments over and over! Hopefully it gets done for 2016 ;)
- Any of the vids by
textandtea at lightningmix- Harry/Draco Art: I want to be the first thing you touch in the morning by
primeaThe New And Improved Morning Routine ™, Harry calls it, ever since that one time Draco agreed to stay the night.
JFC This is gorgeous.
♥ the Gentle Descent Into Ruination by
hybridshadeCleaning up the streets is a tough gig, but Detective Jared Padalecki has always had a strict moral code to fall back on, to help him make the tough decisions. Jensen is his criminal informant, and has proven time and again to be Jared's one exception to the rule.
This was such a delectable fic. Sexy and intense!
♥ ove or death, grab an end, pull hard, and make a wish by
riyku Rookie mistake number one: the sheriff should have put the handcuffs on a notch tighter. (Or, how I spent my summer vacation, by Jensen Ackles, serial killer.)
Gritty and feral and miles away from my usual fic I love, but DAMN R has a way of drawing you in no matter what.
♥ Sing the Praises by
viviansface Long story short, being in a long distance relationship sucks (not that that’s surprising, Jensen realized it really, really would approximately ten hours after Jared left for college hundreds of miles away).
Fantastic - so much conveyed without losing any of the sexiness.
solo ride until i die
Mar. 28th, 2016 08:11 pm-I'm having issues with Twitter right now so I think I need to take a step back [jealousy, pettiness, etc]
-I'm actually having a lot of social media anxiety lately :/
-Weight is still annoying as FUCK. I can't stop stuffing food in my mouth
-Watched My Big Fat Greek Wedding 2 and the Bollywood movie Kapoor & Sons and dude ALL THE PARENTAL FEELS
-School is keeping me hella busy
-Boys are difficult
And that's my life :D
-I'm actually having a lot of social media anxiety lately :/
-Weight is still annoying as FUCK. I can't stop stuffing food in my mouth
-Watched My Big Fat Greek Wedding 2 and the Bollywood movie Kapoor & Sons and dude ALL THE PARENTAL FEELS
-School is keeping me hella busy
-Boys are difficult
And that's my life :D
boathouse love pimpage
Mar. 12th, 2016 01:47 pmI know a lot of people are at Vegas con but hopefully we see this :)
Boathouse Love Suggestions Post
Please help up pimp out this community a bit more!
Boathouse Love Suggestions Post
Please help up pimp out this community a bit more!
So big_heart_june is my girl for con goodness, J2 goodness, recs, and NSFW gifs. She has it ALL. And she posted this ( nsfw gif ) and now I want ALL the riding fic. NGH. *GRABBY HANDS*
You're welcome.
big_heart_june is my girl for con goodness, J2 goodness, recs, and NSFW gifs. She has it ALL. And she posted this ( nsfw gif ) and now I want ALL the riding fic. NGH. *GRABBY HANDS*You're welcome.
My Saturday
Feb. 28th, 2016 01:47 am1. Finished Fuller House :D [Like ten episodes, started last night]
2. Started Limitless
3. Read a BUNCH of Stiles/Derek ficlets
4. Recced onboathouselove
5. Bought a second-hand trenchcoat, and now I need a fedora
6. Came up with a written plan for my kiddos on Monday [It's detective-themed and they're investigating triangles. I hope they enjoy it bc this was hella effort and $$]
7. Saw Jensen and Jared were on a date in Nashville and Jensen sang at the Con :D
8. Made a gif! <-- I admit, since Houston con, this pops up in my class a lot haha
How was yours? And now I sleeep!
2. Started Limitless
3. Read a BUNCH of Stiles/Derek ficlets
4. Recced on
boathouselove5. Bought a second-hand trenchcoat, and now I need a fedora
6. Came up with a written plan for my kiddos on Monday [It's detective-themed and they're investigating triangles. I hope they enjoy it bc this was hella effort and $$]
7. Saw Jensen and Jared were on a date in Nashville and Jensen sang at the Con :D
8. Made a gif! <-- I admit, since Houston con, this pops up in my class a lot haha
How was yours? And now I sleeep!
been catching up friends season 1
Feb. 9th, 2016 09:35 pm- Am I the only one that isn't really fan of the whole Ross/Rachel saga? Monica and Chandler ALL the way! (Chandler is totes my fave)
- Just bought this *facepalm* like I need another shirt, but seriously love it haha
- Just bought this *facepalm* like I need another shirt, but seriously love it haha
this is why i have money problems...
Feb. 8th, 2016 09:12 pm-just bought a Buxom eyeshadow palette! It's pretty and shiny and I love it. I don't even USE make up that much but I love buying it fdskjslkdjf I have a problem.
-so boy cancelled on me yesterday. He didn't give a reason just his mom. Keep in mind this is the second time he's cancelled (the first time I had almost reached the place to meet). He texted me today saying 'i know you mad at me' (let's not even get INTO the grammar right now)
I responded with long texts explaining how I'm not mad, but disappointed, and that this kinda proves I'm not up there on his priority list. And he was like 'i get it and it won't happen again I'll lead by actions not words' and I was like 'uhhh you DID lead by actions - you didn't come and you used your pretty words to butter me up'. And then he was like I gotta change I know and I told him to do it for him and he responded "and our future" and right now? I'm not really seeing a future. I KNOW I'm being harsh. But seriously?! TWICE. And not even a proper explanation.
Okay rant over. REMINDER: GO TOboathouselove, JOIN, PIMP, FIC/ART!
-so boy cancelled on me yesterday. He didn't give a reason just his mom. Keep in mind this is the second time he's cancelled (the first time I had almost reached the place to meet). He texted me today saying 'i know you mad at me' (let's not even get INTO the grammar right now)
I responded with long texts explaining how I'm not mad, but disappointed, and that this kinda proves I'm not up there on his priority list. And he was like 'i get it and it won't happen again I'll lead by actions not words' and I was like 'uhhh you DID lead by actions - you didn't come and you used your pretty words to butter me up'. And then he was like I gotta change I know and I told him to do it for him and he responded "and our future" and right now? I'm not really seeing a future. I KNOW I'm being harsh. But seriously?! TWICE. And not even a proper explanation.
Okay rant over. REMINDER: GO TO
boathouselove, JOIN, PIMP, FIC/ART!
regrets collect like old friends
Feb. 5th, 2016 09:46 pm♥ akintay and I are working hard on something exciting - so keep your eyes peeled! (quickreaver has been quite helpful with that)
♥ I (hopefully!) get to meet my closest friends tomorrow. It's hard for ALL 7 of us to coordinate and we were SO close to getting all of us, but one had to go to NY for an interviewI'm irrationally upset that she won't be there. We are having brunch together at this new place and brunch is my FAVE meal so YAY
♥ I miiiiight be meeting boy on Sunday. So we'll see how that goes.
♥ I GET TO SEE FANGIRLS IN A WEEK YOU GUYS. skldfjslkdjfs *shivers all over*
akintay and I are working hard on something exciting - so keep your eyes peeled! (quickreaver has been quite helpful with that)♥ I (hopefully!) get to meet my closest friends tomorrow. It's hard for ALL 7 of us to coordinate and we were SO close to getting all of us, but one had to go to NY for an interview
♥ I miiiiight be meeting boy on Sunday. So we'll see how that goes.
♥ I GET TO SEE FANGIRLS IN A WEEK YOU GUYS. skldfjslkdjfs *shivers all over*
what do you mean?
Feb. 4th, 2016 11:05 pmI've been on a Bieber kick lately - and I remember I was SO against him a few years ago. SMH. How people change (me and him haha)
I just bought this and I hope it gets here in time for the con!
I WISH I could do this to my hair!
Man, once you click on Buzzfeed you kinda get SUCKED in, don't you?
Also, I really want THIS to become a fic. Jensen as the grumpy ship guy!!!
I just bought this and I hope it gets here in time for the con!
I WISH I could do this to my hair!
Man, once you click on Buzzfeed you kinda get SUCKED in, don't you?
Also, I really want THIS to become a fic. Jensen as the grumpy ship guy!!!
thinking about joining weight watchers...
Feb. 3rd, 2016 08:57 pm1. Why is weight loss SUCH a struggle?!
2. I wish I had thought about buying a cool ass scarf for the con WEEKS ago. #whoneedsmoney *smacks self*
3. Poll for comm names!
[Poll #2035706]
2. I wish I had thought about buying a cool ass scarf for the con WEEKS ago. #whoneedsmoney *smacks self*
3. Poll for comm names!
[Poll #2035706]
AHHH MEMORIES
Feb. 2nd, 2016 10:16 pmSo I quoted this on Twitter and got all nostalgic about how all fics started like that aaaaaages ago and then how the boys moved in together and fandom was deliriously happy and notjustroomates was born! But now that needs an uplift and I'm thinking of making a new comm for j2 love (akintay was brilliant and said it should be named notjustneighbors except that is TOO LONG that's what he said *kicks LJ* so need another name!) and anyway, long story short, you interested?
....that was nowhere near grammatically correct and I can't care at ALL. :D
notjustroomates was born! But now that needs an uplift and I'm thinking of making a new comm for j2 love (akintay was brilliant and said it should be named notjustneighbors except that is TOO LONG ....that was nowhere near grammatically correct and I can't care at ALL. :D
FEBRUARY - month of loooooove
Feb. 1st, 2016 09:22 pmHEY GUYS! [how lovely is this icon? Look at those cute boys *pinches cheeks*]
Okay so a shortened month wherein I shall endeavor to post every day. I've been feeling crappy since yesterday and did most of my teaching sitting down today, WHOOPS.
So, I've been kinda talking to this guy for the past 2-3 months. He's sweet, but idk, I'm not FEELING it you know? But man, he was so sweet to call me twice yesterday to check up on me. He asked to call me tonight and I said no because well I wasn't feeling like talking to anybody. I feel terrible for doing that, but not enough to call him?
IDK, I feel like I read so much romantic stuff in fandom that when it kinda happens in RL I'm all *rolls eyes* which is dumb.
ANYWAY, I don't know how to tell if this thing is GOING anywhere. Advice?
Okay so a shortened month wherein I shall endeavor to post every day. I've been feeling crappy since yesterday and did most of my teaching sitting down today, WHOOPS.
So, I've been kinda talking to this guy for the past 2-3 months. He's sweet, but idk, I'm not FEELING it you know? But man, he was so sweet to call me twice yesterday to check up on me. He asked to call me tonight and I said no because well I wasn't feeling like talking to anybody. I feel terrible for doing that, but not enough to call him?
IDK, I feel like I read so much romantic stuff in fandom that when it kinda happens in RL I'm all *rolls eyes* which is dumb.
ANYWAY, I don't know how to tell if this thing is GOING anywhere. Advice?
love yourself
Jan. 30th, 2016 05:43 pmI just deleted a ranty post so let's get down to business :D
- I MISS YOU
- I need photo op ideas because I see the boys in TWO WEEKS. On Valentine's Day no less!
- Been reading Stiles/Derek fic NONSTOP lately and I feel like I'm cheating on J2 :/ haha I STILL ADORE THEM!!! [like when they post pics of each other or you know mention the other] We have the cutest boys, guys.
- Did I mention I miss you? I need to revel in here a little more I know <3 And I also know I say that every time *facepalm*
- I MISS YOU
- I need photo op ideas because I see the boys in TWO WEEKS. On Valentine's Day no less!
- Been reading Stiles/Derek fic NONSTOP lately and I feel like I'm cheating on J2 :/ haha I STILL ADORE THEM!!! [like when they post pics of each other or you know mention the other] We have the cutest boys, guys.
- Did I mention I miss you? I need to revel in here a little more I know <3 And I also know I say that every time *facepalm*
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All you ever did was wreck me
Jan. 5th, 2016 08:12 pm- Vid: Shut Up and Dance by cloex_brosluvr
SO FUN.
- Vid: Staring at the Sun bylightningmix
Password: need
OMG fsldkjfslkjf this vidder always leaves me breathless
+ SPN Art: At the end of all things byamberdreams
Man, such a cool perspective!
+ HD Art: Snowy Snogfest athd_erised
AMAZING Draco/Malfoy snoggage :D
= Keeping Company byessene
Amazingly, Jared listens to Chad and things don't go completely haywire.
Sexy yet playful.
= All That Glitters byfiercelynormal
TSA Agent Jared Padalecki has been trained for all manner of different situations. But he wasn't prepared for this.
oh hot DAMN this was amazing
= Deep Roots Are Not Reached by the Frost byzubeneschamali
The newly crowned King Jared has achieved a goal he has sought his entire life. But his deepest desire has not yet been met, and he's starting to wonder if the pledges he and his Elf exchanged will no longer hold now that everything has changed.
Sweet, sexy, and utterly perfect.
cloex_brosluvrSO FUN.
- Vid: Staring at the Sun by
lightningmix Password: need
OMG fsldkjfslkjf this vidder always leaves me breathless
+ SPN Art: At the end of all things by
amberdreamsMan, such a cool perspective!
+ HD Art: Snowy Snogfest at
hd_erisedAMAZING Draco/Malfoy snoggage :D
= Keeping Company by
esseneAmazingly, Jared listens to Chad and things don't go completely haywire.
Sexy yet playful.
= All That Glitters by
fiercelynormalTSA Agent Jared Padalecki has been trained for all manner of different situations. But he wasn't prepared for this.
oh hot DAMN this was amazing
= Deep Roots Are Not Reached by the Frost by
zubeneschamaliThe newly crowned King Jared has achieved a goal he has sought his entire life. But his deepest desire has not yet been met, and he's starting to wonder if the pledges he and his Elf exchanged will no longer hold now that everything has changed.
Sweet, sexy, and utterly perfect.
